Yikes... Looks like my premium membership is ending soon... I hope that all my nifty journal skins and features for all my groups and what-not won't get affected by this. Q.Q I'm also not looking forward to all the advertisements again.
Aside from that, YIKES! I've been away so long... I'm so sorry...
My job has been okay. Leaves me super tired at night though so I haven't done much besides work and sleep.
So many bills! Being old sucks.. Living paycheck to paycheck is killing me. >.<
I've been doing a lot of soul searching while I'm back in Hawaii actually.
1) I've been going to church and praying every day. I've been asking the Lord what my calling is... What my purpose in life is as a profession and as a daughter of Christ.
Yeah, I know, complete 180 from what I used to be like a few years ago. I'm glad I'm back in God's grace. But this has lead me to find that I know I want to be in a profession that helps and serves people. Unfortunately, as the bible says in Mathew 6:24
<quote>"No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money."</quote>
So... If I want to live a life pleasing to the Lord, I don't think I'm going to make millions... XD And if I do, I'll need to donate that to a good cause otherwise will be plagued and constantly tempted by the Devil. That being said, what kind of profession is out there that can please God but help me live within my means and provide for my family? That's currently the biggest question I'm facing now.
2) Sadly, I'm trying to find an affordable place to live in Hawaii... That, my friends, is near IMPOSSIBLE, unless you are wealthy. Hence why so many families live with their parents or friends share bedrooms. If I had a friend I could just pay for a room with near school, I'd totally do that. Too bad the ones who wouldn't mind are all guys... XD No need for drama or awkwardness in my life right now. Q.Q Or the rooms available will be with strangers and I just pray they aren't sketchy. >.< Fuuu...
Aside from that, I've also been trying to refocus my priorities. Online art and whatnot has always been for fun. This means that it's been put on the back burner... I'm so sorry for projects left undone because of my being away and hope you all understand. Please don't stop having fun on my account. As soon as I am back on track with my life I know that I can find the time to return to my hobbies again.
Artwork hasn't completely left my life though. I do face painting for parties on the side and it's fun and fast. Fantastic stuff actually. I'll post my art later when I have the time. ^^ I also started making invitations for parties. Simple things that I'm sure everyone on here could do. Lol. Oh man though... This isn't often...
So in order to get my creative juices fulfilled without having to spend hours drawing or being online, I've been taking a lot of pictures of Hawaii with my phone. Just to be able to see the natural beauty around me and have it on my phone has been a blessing. Only when you are taken from your art do you really appreciate it. So I'm grateful that those little snapshots of my beautiful sunsets and sunrises, clouds over mountains, and flora within forests, and waves along beaches have been keeping me calm, focused, and fills my need for art.
...Sorry for the randomness of this journal, but there was a lot of things on my mind... XD
I'll end this journal with this: No matter what is happening in your life, be sure to find the happiness, love, art, and beauty in your life. It will keep you focused and strong.
Congrats to all the Kiriban Winners!